May 18th, 2008 Posted in Culture, Personal Growth, Psychology, Society | 1 Comment »
We are the Hollow Men,
We are the stuffed men,
Leaning together,
Headpiece filled with straw. Alas!
Our dried voices, when
We whisper together
Are quiet and meaningless
As wind in dry grass
Or rats’ feet over broken glass
In our dry cellar
Shape without form, shade without colour,
Paralysed force, gesture without motion.
-T.S. Eliot, The Hollow Men
Over the last week, I have made the conscious decision and effort to limit my time on the Internet to between and hour and two hours a day, with a target of an hour. I was becoming increasingly concerned at the fact that I was wasting my life away in front of the computer screen, endlessly chattering on instant messenger, endlessly reading the latest news, up to the nanosecond. After all, I did spend two years of my life working in the Web 2.0 world, and shouldn’t I be involved in the latest and greatest of technologies to be released? After all, didn’t the advent of Web 2.0 bring about the opportunity for building community on the Internet?
Perhaps one day I will write a novel about Eliot’s Hollow Men. The premise of the novel would be a less dramatic rendition of Plato’s Cave, set in contemporary American society, but much unlike The Matrix or Vanilla Sky. For those of you who are not familiar with the origins of the plots for movies like The Matrix or Vanilla Sky, where people are in a dream world and ultimately faced with the question of whether to continue living in their fantasy world or to live in the real world, this plot line is not a terribly modern invention. It is a clear derivation from Plato’s Republic, the section of which is simply called Plato’s Cave. The problem with movies like Vanilla Sky and The Matrix is that the characters are faced with a drastic choice–a world that is completely real or a world that is completely fake.
Characters in such movies inevitably choose the real world, and American audiences are so happy and relieved at this. It helps facilitate Americans’ own fantasy–like the fantasy that they have freedom or the fantasy that America is a just nation. People, after all, love to talk about their freedom and how much they love freedom, but they rarely exercise it, and they don’t even protect it at the ballot box. Similarly, Americans love movies like Vanilla Sky where the character chooses to endure the hardships of the real world rather than enjoy an eternity of fantasy. The problem is, however, that we are not faced with such a sharp contrast of choices, and we therefore delude ourselves into believing that what we are doing is “real,” even though in many cases it is far from it.
In Star Trek: The Next Generation, the Starship Enterprise is equipped with a gigantic room called the Holodeck. On the Holodeck, everything is real, but nothing is real. It is like a blue screen on steroids, where one can enact any scene, any imaginary scenario they desire, and if the safety protocols are removed, even a Holodeck bullet can kill. The crew members select their scenario, go in, act it out, and then return to the real world. Americans, it seems, live their lives in a series of briefly punctuated Holodeck scenarios and fail to see the great interconnectedness of life. Perhaps it is generations of rugged individualism that has inculcated in our collective psyche the inability to see The Other.
Living in the Holodeck of our lives, we frequently neglect Martin Buber’s I-Thou distinction and our default modus operandi centers around I-It distinctions, where the former denotes a Subject-Subject relationship and the latter describes a Subject-Object relationship. Indeed, in our spiritual and emotional immaturity, we see the people around us as mere characters on our life’s little Holodeck scenario, where they are supposed to meet our every need at the moment it first enters into our own consciousness. And if they do not, then perhaps we replace them with characters who do. I have had business partners who operated like this. I have seen many romantic relationships rent asunder by this.
The reality is that when we understand the I-Thou, when we recognize that there is another, real human being with thoughts, desires, emotions, expectations, and personality distinct and different from our own, but not within our capacity to control, we are necessarily forced into at least some humility. By recognizing I-Thou, we are able to diminish our autocratic tendencies to control others. We are then free to let them be free. True love can only flourish in an environment of freedom. Love cannot be coerced.
But most of us, instead, prefer to live on our Holodecks where we coerce people into fake love and walk around happy in our pseudocommunities. The Internet provides us endless opportunities to feed our Holodeck addictions. Whether it is the mundane world of people’s photos and comment walls like MySpace and Facebook or the more intensive destination of SecondLife, or the complete fantasy-land of World of Warcraft, there is a place for everybody’s fake life, for everybody’s Holodeck. Other people prefer to use television shows as their Holodecks: living vicariously through the lives of television or movie characters, they refuse to engage the world around them, living only a pretend existence. Historically, many an escapist buried themselves in books or work, and those more antique Holodecks are still readily available today.
This is not to say that reading, writing, movie-watching and even some television is incapable of being a positive and fulfilling adjunct to normal, real life. Certainly, film and literature are forms of art without which we would be less human. Humanity’s capacity to imagine and dream is essential to our existence, and without it, we would be robots or animals. We must, however, avoid the temptation to let these things turn into our Holodecks. The real world is difficult, and the Holodecks are seemingly easy, but they aren’t worth a whole lot either.
In Aldous Huxely’s novel Brave New World, the character described as the Savage, refused to become part of and participate in the escapist drug and empty sex culture that existed in the Brave New World society. Ultimately driven to suicide to leave this meaningless world, this outcast was abhorred and condemned by his contemporaries for his bizarre refusal to enjoy soma and random sex. We are faced with a similar conundrum in our own way.
Even when we do venture out into the “real” world, we are doing so, usually under the false pretense that what we are doing is actually real. Millions of people find solace in clubs and bars, interacting with real people they think. Visiting a club or a bar is a rather depressing experience for me anymore. I look out at a vast sea of faces of Hollow Men, Stuffed Men; people pretending they have human interaction; people pretending they have genuine relationships; people even seeking genuine love. But they won’t find it there. They won’t find it there because they are being disingenuous about what it is they are even looking for. Most people really are looking for the cheap trick, even if that isn’t always in the traditional sense of a quick sexual encounter. Even in supposed romantic relationships, people are just playing a part.
Scared in many circumstances to express their real desires, dreams, and expectations for life, they sit frozen and paralyzed by the fear that their authentic self will cause them to lose their beloved. At the other end of the spectrum, scared that their desires, dreams, and expectations won’t come true if they don’t come true now, people dart from relationship to relationship, hook-up to hook-up, hoping that they will hit the jackpot and all of their dreams will come true. Those are the lives of Holodecks, the former individual living in a nightmare thinking he’s living in a dream, the latter living in a nightmare hoping it will turn into a dream. Both will likely go on living in their respective Holodecks, never willing to go through the work of depression, the work of giving up. All legitimate depression is the giving up of something, some person, or some ideal that is dear to us. People living in Holodecks refuse to part with the idea that the life they are living is real, that the life they are living is only going to improve, and that the life they are living will just get easier.
I am reminded again of Chesterton’s poem The Aristocrat, where he says
So blind your eyes and break your heart and hack your hand away
And lose your love, and shave your head, but do not go to stay:
At the little place at What’sitsname, where folks are rich and clever,
The Golden and the Goodly House, where things grow worse forever.
The world of the Hollow Men, the world of the Holodeck, is that place where things grow worse forever. In life, there is no middle ground between growth and decay. Decay occurs at all times when we are not actively pursuing growth. When we are living on our Holodecks, we are decaying. Since most of us spend most of our time living on Holodecks, it means that most people are decaying throughout most of their lives. This is a harsh reality that we all must come to terms with, and that in so doing, we will turn and pursue growth instead.
Growth, as Peck observes in The Road Less Traveled, requires a radical dedication to reality. If we are to grow then, we must turn off our Holodecks. We must turn off Instant Messenger. We must turn off the Television. We must not pick up our cellphones or get in our cars and drive to the nearest pub. We must be willing to be silent and quiet for a few moments and realize that without the endless concocted distractions of our modern world, we are actually quite lonely people. We are actually quite unfulfilled and empty people.
If we do this. If we allow ourselves to see our loneliness and emptiness. If we allow ourselves the perspective to see that we have been wasting our lives and living as Hollow Men, only then can we change it.
Some people are fortunate enough (as I am) to be able to wake up and look next to them and see somebody lying there, sleeping peacefully, who they know will join them in this real life endeavor; who will forsake the Holodecks and pursue radical growth; who is willing to adventure and leave behind the Hollow life for something difficult, but fulfilling. This is when being in love is truly full of love, when one has this sort of person in their life. But even if such a person is next to you, there is little question that there is much growth that yet needs to be done, and in love, the two people in that relationship must foster the growth of each other in an environment of genuine, unconditional commitment. It is hard work. It is a labor of love. It will require stepping outside of your own level of comfort. It will mean pushing the other person, and sometimes pulling. It will mean dealing with conflict. But it will be worth it.
For those who do not have such a person, who may be in relationships with people who only care about the next social gathering or the next episode of whatever evening soap opera might be on, or that next drunken party, or their next raise at work, you have a tough choice to make. Is the person you are with ready to grow? Do you think you can pry them out of their Holodeck? If so, then do it. Nobody will have ever loved them more. Everybody needs to be pried from their Holodeck. It is perhaps the only way we will all keep from killing each other in the end. If we are forced to live in the world of what is real, then we will recognize the I-Thou, not only in our romantic lives but in our interactions with all other human persons. It is at that point, when we see other people in ourselves, that we are truly capable of loving humanity. It is only then that we will solve the world’s problems. Your beloved will thank you one day for helping them be part of this grand solution, and for giving them a fulfilling life.
For everybody else, who seem to be facing the world alone, and perhaps who have chosen to live in a Holodeck for this very reason, leave your Holodeck. Run out into the streets. There will be others like you.
Our radical commitment to reality means that we will all have to grow up. There is no place in the real world for Peter Pan.
I’m sure that readers will ask me, “But where do we start?” Growing up starts by admitting that one is not already grown up and it is a process that will not end until we die. It warms my heart to hear men in their 60s wonder what they will do when they grow up. It is a beautiful admission of humility that contemplates the excitement of real life. When we admit that we aren’t already grown up, that we don’t already have everything figured out, we will be freed to observe the things that we really don’t have figured out. We will see things that we try to avoid doing because they are uncomfortable, and we will learn how to be comfortable in doing them. We will be ever more aware, ever more conscious, both of ourselves and those around us.
I am genuinely pleading with anybody who reads this blog post: dedicate yourselves to reality. Dedicate yourselves to love. Work hard at it. Work hard at nothing else. I will be right there with you, suffering alongside you. We can commiserate. We can cry together. And we can help each other.
That’s what life is really about.